There hasn't been too much for me to do these past several days except sit around my room, which hasn't been too healthy for me physically nor mentally, but I feel like I'm doing a little better. I went out with Bec and Mone last night and laughed a whole lot, something I'd been needing to do for a very long while. Tonight my dad, stepmom and I went out for dinner and rented Life As A House which, for all its value as a weepy postmodern family-system drama like an American Beauty Part 2 without all the magic, was an okay movie. (Except for the fact that the guy's son is at the beginning of the movie a raging angsty goth punk 16-year-old who's a gay prostitute, but at the end of the movie has once again embraced family values and gotten himself a little girlfriend. ^_^ No morals there.) What the hell was I talking about? Oh yeah-- so I've been getting out my room and spending time with people I love, and I'm feeling better, very slowly. I still walk like a gimp, and whenever I shift my weight or pivot my leg wrong-- which is often-- it still feels like someone's jamming a knife into my upper right thigh, but it's not as bad as it was. It hurts so badly because they had to cut through some of the muscles in my leg to reach my groin from the incis-- wow, I get grossed out just from typing this. I probably need to slap a big fat "TOO MUCH INFORMATION" notice on the top of this blog nowadays, don't I.

One of Dad's co-workers and his family came by this afternoon to see me. The son gave me a copy of Lance Armstrong's book, which is about his battle with cancer and a great read as I've heard from several people, and the mother made me cookies to eat while reading them. I'd never met these people before, yet when they heard I was sick they came by to talk to me and offer their support and give me gifts. I was almost in tears. The support I've received since all of this began-- in particular from my friends, family and Matt but by this family's random act of kindness too-- has been really eye-opening for me. It's made me realize that there are a lot of people who care about me, and that's a fantastic feeling. I don't know how I can ever feel lonely again-- there are so many people who love me and so many people who I love.