I was supposed to tutor Alex tonight with his Spanish, but he bailed on me for the third time in the past week because he'd "had a hard day" and would rather do it later in the week "at any time that's convenient for me"-- which he also said for these three times in the past week that I set aside time for him and he cancelled. That's not very convenient at all. I hope I don't do things like this and simply don't realize it. I'd like to believe that when I give my word, it has value for people.

Speaking of work: tonight when I went back for my second shift the huge wooden doors to the workroom were closed, something that never happens. I tugged on the handles; the doors gave a little but didn't open. I could hear plenty of people in the room and knocked, but no one let me in. Tried the handles again; again, the doors moved a bit but didn't open. Knocked again. No help. Finally I knocked quite loudly and still no one helped me! I gave the handles one last crank and a little push-- and the doors opened forwards, into a room packed with my coworkers all gaping at me in mute disbelief. And I'm in college?

I have my New Job orientation tomorrow at 11, work at my current job from 5-9, then start the New Job at 2:30am. I'm hoping that I will be physically able to do this job, but I'm not very confident. My stomach is churning with dread just thinking about it.

And tonight I came home to find an email from a best friend in need of serious help that could very effectively turn my world even more topsy-turvy in a few weeks' time.

Oh, and class starts in 25 days and counting. I guess this summer's going to end with a bang after all. Here's to hoping that it won't be in my face.