It occured to me today that I've been feeling very nasty and pessimistic almost constantly since the semester started. More specifically, I think it's because now I don't have any time to see Matt anymore except for the weekends. I get like this whenever I go for awhile without seeing him often, and this, if anything, assures me that I'm making the right choice by hopping back to the Old Job. And I mentioned the promotion, right?

Somehow it slipped my mind to note that I trucked to the clinic on Friday to investigate those odd vision loss spells. The doctor says they're a classic symptom of migraines-- it actually has nothing to do with one's eyes. It's called positive feedback, and it occurs when the neocortex receives some extra stimulus that it doesn't know how to translate, so in effect it just creates something in your vision. (Negative feedback would be something like black-outs.) I'm relieved to know it's migraines, but then, it's not like migraines are a good thing either. My doctor here is talking to my doctor at the cancer clinic to see about adding a brain scan when I go in for my usual tests on the 26th. But, interestingly enough, this all startedsoon after I started the new job. Personally, I'm thinking sleep deprivation has its nefarious talons in this mess.

Hokay, I can stall no longer. Time to study.