I am about to go hang my own shoooooow wish me luuuuuuck ^____^

Oh man, it's almost exam week. /)_(\ I'm very nervous, but I just finished my Drawing II final project and it looks neat, so that cheers me up. Today was my last day at work and they brought me lunch and everyone signed a card for me-- it was very very sweet, and I want to work in the office next year too. ........ Mom is out of the hospital and back home in Virginia, still recovering nicely. It is a nice little understatement to say that I'm relieved. ....... I'm getting a week-long solo exhibition in the most coveted gallery space in the entire school. Pretty neat for a freshman, huh? Working in the Vis Arts office sure had its benefits, like connections. '^_^' I hang everything tomorrow, and hopefully it will r0xx0r.

My mother is in the hospital right now. She came down to visit me on Friday and Saturday; on Friday morning, though, our cat bit her hand badly and by the time she got into Athens, it was so infected that she went to the hospital as soon as she was in town. It turned out to be a possibly fatal disease that cats carry-- the name escapes me at the moment-- and they gave her an IV and some medicines. We had dinner and spent a few hours together, and then she turned in early. On Saturday there was no improvement; we got lunch to go and then she drove to Atlanta, where my sister lives, in order to go to an Atlanta hospital. My sister called me at ten on Sunday morning to tell me that after a night of IVs and medications, mom woke up still worse. This is when I truly began to panic, but later my dad called to let me know she felt like she was improving. I called her twice during the day myself to talk to her, and today I heard she's continuing to improve. Still, I'm thinking that I'm pretty fucking over all of this school business. I want it to be summer already, so I'll have the luxury again of focusing on the things in my life that are really important. Two more weeks to go and I know they'll be the worst ones.

Well paint my lips and call me a bitch, Blogger's been eating all my posts. Things have been very nuts the past few days. Tomorrow I have a slide-ID quiz in Art History and a huge project due in 3D Comp that I'll have to go in early to finish. Today I broke my discman AND lost my choker, the one I've worn every day since my dad got it for me in Bora Bora which you can see in this picture. (Oh jesus I love having my own server. I love it. I LOVE it. http://lerve.com. Go see it and love it too.) Back to why I am upset-- well, it must have fallen off as I was walking home and it simply infuriates me that I could be so blind as to not notice. It makes me furious to think that someone else will find it and wear it. They don't know what it means at all. It means nothing to them. It makes me furious to think someone will find it and throw it away. It makes me furious to think it will slip into a gutter and be rendered garbage. ....If you can't tell, I have a real bad problem losing things. On the small good side, though, I wore the necklace that my friend Manna gave me and several people noticed and liked it. I also didn't have Drawing and in its stead went downtown to buy art supplies and also picked up a used Tim O'Brien book since we've been studying him in English and he's really cool. Wow, this is a long post. Well, the weekend's almost here, and Mom's coming to visit. I guess I'll be able to relax soon. .............And by god, if I ever see someone wearing my lost choker you can be sure I'll tear it from his neck.

Well, I thought it was about time I post something too! It's good to know that letters have been written and I hope I hope I hope that means I'm getting a letter too! I have all this great new stationery and I really shouldn't write any more double or triple-letters but it gets really nervewracking to wait sometimes. I just have all this love to give...! What have I been doing? A bunch of nothing. Buying doujinshi I can't afford, looking though consumptionjunction.com, eating jellybeans, burning stuff, writing my Japanese Kotani Kinya-loving penpal named Rui... same stuff I always do! I'm sitting here and I just know there are people RPing without me online right now... Aaron! I demand you RP with me instead of someone else! *rawr*

T_T With Keidoodle's amazing help I have gotten myself a great paid host and a domain. lerve.com. Oh yes, it will be glorious.

My monitor is dying and the left button of my mouse is almost not functional. XP Damn them. Damn them to hell.

(Listening to: Apoptygma Berserk) I cleaned my room, I wrote my friends letters... Just menial domestic tasks like that. And Allen and I broke up. There was a lull in conversation and I was just like "This isn't really working out, is it," and he agreed it wasn't. We've been 'dating' since early January, but haven't seen each other in over two months, and he's looking at a school in Chicago, and I'm too brainless for a relationship... I don't think either of us are too heart-broken and we're sure as hell going to stay friends. I'm wondering if one of the biggest dangers to a relationship is learning that you can function without the other person.

Happy Saturday. Matt #2 and I grabbed lunch at a Chinese Buffet place and then, thoroughly stuffed and lazy, lounged on his couch and watched Cowboy Bebop vol. 4 and Mononoke Hime, which neither of us had seen. He didn't like it at all, but I was dully impressed. Then I came home, nervously submitted a couple skins to winamp.com, and did things like sort my browser bookmarks and rearrange my desk drawers. Tomorrow I am going to CLEAN MY ROOM because it needs to be done. You wait and see. It'll be spotless.

It's felt like Friday all week for some reason so now that it's arrived, there's not much of a thrill behind it. I made an 87 on my History test and that pisses me off. I'm sure I should be grateful, and I'm sure I sound like a whiny snot, but failing a test is not half as frustrating as being three damn points away from an A. I'm hovering on that A/B line in all of my classes, so you're talking about a couple points in each class that could make my semestral GPA anywhere from 3.0 to 4.0. .....Look at me sitting in my pajamas at 3AM on Saturday morning talking about school shit. I'm such a dork. History aside, we went to the Georgia Museum of Art (it's on UGA campus) during Drawing II to see the MFA Show, and it was damn cool. I stayed a half-hour after everyone else to wander around by myself, seeing the other art and listening to the sounds of my shoes on the polished floors of the huge gallery rooms. Talk about serene. Matt and I hit Taco Bell for dinner (Chaluuuupas) and went back to his place to eat. We spent two hours talking about our generation's assimilationist trends and other such lofty college-student rhetoric. He also told me about the date he had tonight and how a lot of different pieces of his life seemed to be falling into place... It just made me think about how out of whack my own life is.

Well I made a damn 82.5 on my Art History (not History) test. What gives? I made a 95 on the last test by cramming for four hours the night before, and on this test I spent the entire weekend before it studying like mad. I'm very bitter. But Mary had a Yaoi Night in the basement of her dorm and I ran over there after class; she showed Zetsuai/Bronze, Lesson XX and Fake and a good time was had by all. T_T Now I need sleepies.

You're right, it is dreamt. It's about 85 degrees here and the veins in my arms are swelling up all sci-fi like and I have all my classes off now so I'm just laaaanguishing with nummy Legend of Mana music and doing sitework. Everything is updated so go see! I imagine eventually I will learn to condense all my scrawlings to a single post a day but until then I will continue to have fun being wordy. By the way there is a very cool site called the Online Comic Artist Directory that I joined ("aaronica") and pssst Bekku you should do it too because I'm getting IMs from people who see my art and sites and have feedback for me and it is, um, in a word, rad. T_T ...................I get my History test back tomorrow ack ack hide me

...I dreamed last night that I and about five people I don't know went to Home Depot for a meal. Down the aisles, among the staple guns and lumber, things like individual chicken nuggets and hamburgers and french fries hung on the racks. All unwrapped. I got two big chicken nuggets, some fries and a banana and it cost $16.29; I was really upset but I paid for it with my debit card. -_- Your guess where this dream came from is as good as mine.

Sweet. The site is up and all the pages are working and I figured out how everything works AND-- my supreme friend Becca is going to hop in and make this a joint blog! Not bad for twenty-four hours' work I'd say.

It's twelve hours later now and I'm making a new layout and, by golly, I think I'm set. Now to get the links, um, working...

Well! The site isn't even up and running yet but now I'm making all those important decisions like what sort of casing system am I going to type in, and how much whining will I allow myself to do. We'll just have to find out together, won't we!