It is 2:50am. This paper is due in six and a half hours and I still have nothing written. Pages of notes and a constantly evolving outline, yes, but the essay document contains only the centered word "title," an empty line and the tabbed phrase "paper begins." I think this is the first time in college I have ever simply missed a deadline, and I don't think it ever happened in high school. I'm starting to think it's a matter of me being done with school as it is school being utterly done with me. Which leads naturally to the question: If I can't even do this, what can I do?

Well, that was fun.

90% of my weekend consisted of this. I had a paper due yesterday on the leadership styles of Minamoto Yoritomo and Ashikaga Takauji-- two men I knew nothing about whatsoever, which made every sentence I wrote excrutiatingly unconfident and questionable. This was also a constant problem I faced, albeit an incredibly cute one. The final paper (a surprisingly solid one in my opinion) was only six pages, but its writing spanned early Saturday morning till half an hour before it was due on Monday afternoon. I also had an optional but important first draft of another paper due today, a possibility I had to abandon, and a test today, for which I did very little studying but nevertheless survived intact.

The ten percent of the weekend that more than made up for the rest was my Valentine date with Matt on Sunday night. We dressed up all fancy-like and had an excellent dinner at Bissett's downtown. It was a great chance to put all my stress on hold and simply enjoy being with the man I love.

Regarding silly, frivolous things: I've fallen for Project Runway and I can't get up. I don't want to get up. They also put Tekken 5 in the university gameroom, and it is currently siphoning away most of my scant spare money.

It feels wrong to end on such stupid topics, but that's all there is for the moment.

Jumping through a lot of academic hoops at the present, and it's only going to get worse through the weekend. There won't be much more said until next week.

Here's to you, Georgia! You made it!!